UNDERWEAR…

I’ve never felt so exposed, like I was standing in front of a thousand people in my underwear. 

I knew it wasn’t the intention of the teaching pastor (Jeff Ballard) to leave anyone feeling guilty or offended, but inspired to take a leap of faith, and to lean not on earthly things but the Love of God which is the only thing that satisfies us fully. The message was on “Gluttony” which can mean many things, but most people relate it to over-eating and obesity.

So it’s a wake-up call when your boss requests that you sing a song called “All I Need is You” as the preacher wraps his inspiring and convicting message on (dun dun dun…) GLUTTONY.

It’s one thing to be convicted by a message about any given sin and go lead a song afterwards… But GLUTTONY is the one sin that hangs out for everyone to see. So there I am in front of HD cameras and under high intensity lights singing my heart out about God being “All I need” when clearly, I’ve been relying on food to heal my hurts.

I know that everyone has sin. I know that most people probably weren’t judging me in that moment and that some people might have been.  I know that the message was true. And I know that bringing my sin to light may have helped others to realize that God still uses broken people for His purposes…

But… I also know that I don’t ever want to feel that way again… So I need to kick this obesity before another Gluttony conundrum.

I hope that for anyone who comes across this, that they understand that if you are hung-up, addicted, obsessed, imprisoned or enslaved to something that isn’t the healing power of the Lord, He is there. He is waiting for you to drop it and reach out for His hand. HE is all you need.

L.O.V.E from Joey B.

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DISSONANCE

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I’ve been challenging myself to devote more time to reading the Bible… And if anyone knows me, they know that I don’t enjoy reading at all. It just isn’t my learning method of choice. However, after very little effort on my part, today it seemed as though God reached out himself and grabbed me by the shirt and shook some sense into me.

The scripture I was focused on was deep in Romans 12, which most of us know the beginning of, “Therefore I urge you brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God — this is your true and proper worship.” (Romans 12:1)

My focus was set nearer to the end of the chapter, but in order to understand the context of what I was reading I decided to skim over the chapter and several things jumped out at me.

“Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment.” (Romans 12:3)

“Love must be sincere” (Romans 12:9)

“Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.” (Romans 12:10)

“Live in harmony with one another.” (Romans 12:16)

“If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with EVERYONE.” (Romans 12:18)

Reading this was like a humility bomb going off right in my face. Friends, for years I have been walking around with a chip on my shoulder. There is no way for me to really grasp how many people have been affected by this, but I imagine it is way more than I would care to know or admit.

One of my favorite lines in a Dave Barnes song called “Brothers and Sisters” is, “What good is a helping hand that’s rolled up tight and clenched?” Yet somehow I’ve been going about my life holding all of the ways I’ve been wronged in my life against seemingly innocent friends, family and co-workers that never did anything to deserve my tough exterior. And the worst part is, I was blind to it. I had no idea I was doing this.

We are all works in progress, and I know we all have a side to us that is quite appealing and a side that is so very ugly and disappointing. So I ask forgiveness from anyone I ever strong-handed with my attitude, anyone I ever made feel like I NEEDED to be right, or anyone who ever reached out to help me but I held at arms length to protect myself from being hurt again. Our dissonance is on my hands.

So, bear with me as I seek to find whatever is harmonious and sincere from here on out. Living at peace with EVERYONE is a tall order, but I think it’s time I find balance between being a doormat and being a stone fortress. Thank you to those dear to me that accepted the challenge of forcing me to look at this part of my life so I could better serve and love others.

09.07.14 || SERIES: “ALIENS” || DESIRES

BAND & TEACHING:

Drums: Brock Gibson  |  Bass: Matt Ottinger  |  Keys: Deb Albert  |
Vocalist: Lindsey Meding / Donna Rodgers / Shannon Albert  |
Lead Vocals & Guitar: Steve Reichl / Joey Banua  |
Electric Guitar: Jaden Moody / Steven Potter  |  Teaching: Brian Jobe

SETLIST:
1. “Where the Spirit of the Lord Is”  || Leader: Steve Reischl
2. “10,000 Reasons”  || Leader: Steve Reischl
3. “Never Once”  || Leader: Steve Reischl
— — Message: Brian Jobe
4. “Overcome” || Leader: Joe Banua

8.31.14 || SERIES: “ALIENS” || REACHING OUT TO ALIENS

BAND & TEACHING:

Drums: Tyler Branstetter  |  Bass: Matt Ottinger  |  Keys: Tracy Kiso  |
Acoustic/Vocals: Rob McDonnell  |  Vocalist: Cheryl Sanders  | 
Lead Vocals & Guitar: Joey Banua  |  Electric Guitar: Grant Sanders  |  
Teaching: Brian Jobe

SETLIST:
1. Alive by Hillsong Young & Free
2. Christ is Enough
3. Give Me Faith
— — Message: Brian Jobe
4. Lord, I Need You 

HARVESTER ORIGINIAL || “ALWAYS MORE”

 

Drums: Tim Bryan  |  Bass: Cody Willeford  |  Keys: Deb Albert  |
Acoustic Guitar: Ron Ottinger  |  Vocalists: Shannon & Sharon Albert  |
Lead Vocals & Guitar: Steve Reischl/Joey Banua  |  Guitars: Steven Potter/
Grant Sanders  |  Director: Henry Alconz  |  Editor: Henry Alconz
Written by: Steve Reischl/Joey Banua

 

CHORD CHART:
ALWAYS MORE (Key of B iPad)

8.24.14 || SERIES: “ALIENS” || NOT OF THIS WORLD PEACE

 

BAND & TEACHING:
Drums: Jack Goeke  |  Bass: Cody Willeford  |  Keys: Deb Albert  |
Acoustic Guitar: Ron Ottinger  |  Vocalists: Lindsey Meding/KimWindsor  |
Lead Vocals & Guitar: Steve Reischl/Joey Banua  |  Teaching: Jeff Ballard

SETLIST:
1. Forever by Kari Jobe & Brian Johnson
2. Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave
3. Like A Lion by Daniel Bashta
4. I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin