I’ve never felt so exposed, like I was standing in front of a thousand people in my underwear.
I knew it wasn’t the intention of the teaching pastor (Jeff Ballard) to leave anyone feeling guilty or offended, but inspired to take a leap of faith, and to lean not on earthly things but the Love of God which is the only thing that satisfies us fully. The message was on “Gluttony” which can mean many things, but most people relate it to over-eating and obesity.
So it’s a wake-up call when your boss requests that you sing a song called “All I Need is You” as the preacher wraps his inspiring and convicting message on (dun dun dun…) GLUTTONY.
It’s one thing to be convicted by a message about any given sin and go lead a song afterwards… But GLUTTONY is the one sin that hangs out for everyone to see. So there I am in front of HD cameras and under high intensity lights singing my heart out about God being “All I need” when clearly, I’ve been relying on food to heal my hurts.
I know that everyone has sin. I know that most people probably weren’t judging me in that moment and that some people might have been. I know that the message was true. And I know that bringing my sin to light may have helped others to realize that God still uses broken people for His purposes…
But… I also know that I don’t ever want to feel that way again… So I need to kick this obesity before another Gluttony conundrum.
I hope that for anyone who comes across this, that they understand that if you are hung-up, addicted, obsessed, imprisoned or enslaved to something that isn’t the healing power of the Lord, He is there. He is waiting for you to drop it and reach out for His hand. HE is all you need.
L.O.V.E from Joey B.